Conversation with God

As Chuy and I drove home from Dallas last weekend I took the wheel.  After two days of HUGE and delicious meals prepared by my dad we were both in a food coma.  But Chuy drove to Dallas so I drove home.  As Chuy slept I prayed.  I prayed that I could quiet my mind and speak to God.  More like hear God speak to me.  It really helped me on the drive and then this happened....

Chuy wakes up and says "Woah!  I just had a dream and someone was asking me 'So where's the ring? Where's her diamond ring'" and he added "I think it was Jesus".

Then he falls back asleep only to wake up again saying "I just had a dream your dad gave me this bracelet that said 'Strength' on one side and something else on the other"

Falls asleep

Wakes up and says "What did you say?"
I reply "nothing"
He says "Oh, I thought you said 'The smell of Joy'

Falls back sleep

Then says "No." as a dog runs out into the street.  So I ask him "did you see that dog?!" and he replied "No, I said 'no' before you even asked me the question".

It was a wierd car ride.  It definitly kept me entertained.  It didn't cross my mind that this could be God speaking through Chuy until I asked him the next day if he remembered anything.  He didn't remember saying any of that. 


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Puck Packing!

Well the big move weekend is finally here.  I am up to my eyeballs in stress and anxiety.  When this happens instead of screaming and jumping off a cliff I'm the type who sits completely still.  Obviously, I've found time to write a blog post!


Here's what is going through my head:


"Pack the dishes, that will be easy"
"Ya, easy until I'm hungry for dinner then I'll need the dishes!"
"Go get fast food then you won't dirty dishes"
"Are you kidding?  I gotta save money for gas, who knows how much gas I'll waste with that extra weight in my car"
"Fine, don't do the kitchen. Do the bathroom"
"But I'll need to shower after I pack, I'll be so gross"
"FINE do the living room!" 
"I don't want to do the living room, it's so pretty and it makes me happy looking at it."
"If you were packing you wouldn't have time to look at the pretty living room!"
"Ok, well where should I start? The kitchen?"
....


It's a vicious cycle.
the Farmer comes tonight with his brother, who is sleeping on the couch.  So I definitely need to get the boxes off the couch.  But what should I fill them with??

Wish me luck!


Living Life to the Fullest, one box at a time!


-Rachel

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Living Life the fullest as I enjoy my time left in Dallas

Living Life to the Fullest by moving in a forward direction!

-Rachel

Think Global Act Local

My University had a week dedicated to the "Think Global Act Local" message.  Silly me, I assumed my fellow friends in Universities were also exposed everything I learned about social awareness.  We're not only talking about the "green/Eco" theme going around the U.S.  I mean seriously thinking about other people before you buy that non-fair trade item, before you smoke your cigarette in a public place, before you throw away rather than give away and before you open your mouth!

I know this is just a little blog and maybe only 2 people read.  But writing this down and putting it out there helps me sleep better at night.  It reminds me of my past, allows me to contemplate my present and plan for my future. 

Back to Thinking Global and Acting Local....with a focus on recent conversations:  Naivety is only allowed prior to a certain age.  If you're still naive to the outside world by the age of 22 you are ignorant and, in my recent experience, prejudice.  It's sickening.  There are more people in this world than you and your loved ones.  Yes, of course, your family and friends are very important and can be put first.  But if there is a stranger in the room or a new experience waiting on the other side of a door you better open that door and invite that foreigner to join you!  You don't need to enjoy the experience or the person but I strongly feel you need to embrace the opportunity.  I think you'll be a better person to the ones you love most by experiencing new things everyday. 

If you experience new and different things, experiences outside your comfort zone, you can do one of two things: 1) you can choose to change accordingly or you can 2) stay the same.  Both options are great!  If you choose #1) It should be a positive change to help a negative aspect of you life.  With #2) Staying the same proves you had it right all along and deciding to stay concrete brings in confidence that only you can have in yourself.

So remember:  You are one citizen on the 6.778 billion people on earth.  Do your part to respect them and the favor will be returned.

Living life to the fullest...for each and every one of you

-Rachel Kellar

The Road Ahead

I've known my best friend since kindergarten.  We are completely opposite, but similar in so many ways.  Just the other day we were enjoying a hot yoga class (in 98 degrees) and the poses that were easy for me were difficult for her and visa versa. 

She chose a University close to home and I traveled hours away from home, however we both "took our time" in graduating.  As I move back to our hometown, she has the opportunity to intern at a west coast vineyard.  I am so happy for her and the move - so happy that I am going to be a part of her trip!  We are taking a 30 hour ROAD TRIP! 

The two route options are:
a) New Mexico, Las Vegas, San Diego, San Francisco
b) Oklahoma, Colorado, Boise, Salt Lake City

The object of the trip is to arrive at our destination safe and sound.  My friend is keeping her car during the intership, so we are driving there and flying back without her.  Vegas is tempting....but I'm not sure it's the best option.  I've never been to Vegas, but I'm sure I will go at sometime in my life.  Salt Lake City, Boise Idaho?  I doubt a friend will have a bachelorette party in either of those towns, so maybe now's the time to visit!

Check my twitter for updates on the road!!

Living life to the fullest...one interstate at a time

Where did the time go?

I can't believe it's already June!  This year has FLOWN by!  I didn't blog much in May because I could barely sit still!  I was up in Dallas for family graduations, my sister's dance recital and a wedding. 

My friend Ally, Bride, Groom and Me!

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         When I was finally back in San Antonio I was focused on work.  June 4th and 5th I worked the 7 am breakfast until the 7 pm reception. To recover from my 24 hour working weekend I took a trip to Corpus Christi and went fishing in Port Aransas on the 10th and 11th. I didn't think I was a fan of fishing. Why sit around all day for the possibility of catching something (you don't know what, but something). As you can tell, I only participate when I know the end result is a sure thing. This is why I'm hesitant to gamble or play the stock market. This may also be why I am single and not on the career path I prepared for in college.

          The fishing trip was nice if you disregard the sea-sickness and the friendship that tragically ended. The 2 story fishing boat was air-borne at least 3 times and the rocky waters went on for an hour and a half! I didn't eat breakfast, so the only thing that came up was the champagne from the night before. Yea- eww!!
          And as for the friendship: I’ve come to realize as flattering as it is for someone to want to spend all their time with you, it can be draining and unhealthy. My mental, physical and emotional health were being sacrificed for the satisfaction of having someone who will "always be there".
         Always be there for what?
         Always be there for who?
The only person who needs to "always be there" for me is me. I don't say that in a selfish way, I say that because I'm not always there for me. I depend and let other people be there for me so that I don't hold all the responsibility. The person on this trip was always there for me but they would take a part of me with them, leaving me empty, drained, and lacking in self satisfaction and even self love (why love yourself when someone else can?)
          After the trip and after I guess "finding myself" in the Gulf of Mexico, I came back to San Antonio and finally felt at peace in my house. I had never really considered it "home" but after being on an island of awkwardness for three days, by Sunday I was able to relax in the comfort of the home I've created for myself. Which if I might add is FABULOUS!
         As I'm re-connecting with friends in town I'm choosing to only let in positive and healthy people. To only share my time (note: not give my time, but share it) with people who will make me a better person and friend. People who love me and I freely love in return.

Because really, at the end of the day, all you need is love.

-Rachel